My legs
4-22-17
So it is 3 something a.m. and I am wide awake. Not because I don't want to sleep. Not because I am revved up on caffeine, but because of pain. My right leg is so swollen from Lyphodema and cellulitis and ulcers and wounds that it is throbbing and feels like parts of it are on fire, and people all say "I understand" but they don't. They think I should take an Advil and get over it. I was in the hosp. for 2 weeks on so many pain killers and antibiotics and I couldn't get over it then so why would a fucking Advil help me get over it now? Don't act like you understand unless you have ever had this issue this severely. You can say nice things like "I am sorry you are in pain" or even the "cheesy get well soon", but the you understanding bullshit and the take a pill and get over it bullshit has got to stop! It's like me stabbing you in the fucking eye and saying here, have some Tylenol, you will be fine in an hour or so...Do you understand yet??
I am sick and tired of crying myself to sleep. I am sick and tired of crying so much I get a horrible headache from the stuffy noses from all of my crying and just the agony of the side effects of my daily pain. I am really sick and tired of these leg pumps that I am supposed to wear 2 hours a day that hurt so bad during and after that I have not made it thru more than 30 minutes of them in a day. They are also so hard to get on and off it is ridiculous. I swear, something has got to give!
So it is 3 something a.m. and I am wide awake. Not because I don't want to sleep. Not because I am revved up on caffeine, but because of pain. My right leg is so swollen from Lyphodema and cellulitis and ulcers and wounds that it is throbbing and feels like parts of it are on fire, and people all say "I understand" but they don't. They think I should take an Advil and get over it. I was in the hosp. for 2 weeks on so many pain killers and antibiotics and I couldn't get over it then so why would a fucking Advil help me get over it now? Don't act like you understand unless you have ever had this issue this severely. You can say nice things like "I am sorry you are in pain" or even the "cheesy get well soon", but the you understanding bullshit and the take a pill and get over it bullshit has got to stop! It's like me stabbing you in the fucking eye and saying here, have some Tylenol, you will be fine in an hour or so...Do you understand yet??
I am sick and tired of crying myself to sleep. I am sick and tired of crying so much I get a horrible headache from the stuffy noses from all of my crying and just the agony of the side effects of my daily pain. I am really sick and tired of these leg pumps that I am supposed to wear 2 hours a day that hurt so bad during and after that I have not made it thru more than 30 minutes of them in a day. They are also so hard to get on and off it is ridiculous. I swear, something has got to give!
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