People will never understand

8-24-17 I have finally gotten them to understand that I need to heal a little more before they constantly try and make me stand in physical therapy. They are finally starting to understand my pain as they hear my blood curdling screams when anyone examines my wounds. Finally, they realize I have been in the hospital on and off for almost the entire year because I am not doing well. Jeeze, it only took me 8 months to get them to realize that… 8-25-17 The worst part about being in the hospital? Other than the obvious of being sick and in pain is that I have to use a bed pan. So every time I need to go to the bathroom I hit the nurse call button in my room and someone comes in and puts me on a bed pan so…I am basically peeing while lying down in bed. So now every morning, and I do mean every morning I was up having one of those dreams that I have to pee and I am looking for a bathroom and blah blah blah and the thing is, before I got sick I subconsciously knew that I had to wake

8-22-2017 Physical therapy comes into my room first thig this morning. They wake me up and tell me to stand. Well, I can’t, and that’s it. That’s all they do. I ask if there’s anything else, such as exercises in my bed that I can do for physical therapy and they say no. They just need me to stand. To get me to stand they have to turn me on the bed, as I cannot move my left leg. Then they dangle my legs from the side of the bed and lower the bed. Since the bed is still too high they then drain the mattress of all of its air so I am sitting on metal and it hurts, and then they have me stand, which as I mentioned, I cannot do. I ask is there any exercise I can be doing to make me stronger so that I can stand soon. They say no. They ask if I want them to cancel physical therapy from now on. I say no because I know when you turn down a hospital service it gets held against you. It shouldn’t, but it does. One of the times they sent me home from the hospital in the past before I was fully

8-21-17 I have started watching a lot of home improvement shows since I have been moved from the regular hospital to the continuing care hospital.  I have spent most of this year in the hospital though they always end up sending me home before I am better so then of course I came back. This last time though they sent me home and the doctor even said I still have an infection but he had to send me home but with meds so I would get all better. I went home and a day and a half after the meds ran out I woke up throwing up bile. I called an ambulance and now the infection is so bad it is not just in my leg it is n my blood. I have about 5 infections right now. I have severe legs wounds and pain. I should have never been sent home. My doctor admits it but the insurance didn’t want me to stay at the hospital. This time however, since I have spent more than 7 months on and off in the hospital my insurance is paying for the long-term care. Now that it may be too late. They are talking abou